Dirtbag Writer

New Beginnings: Weary Eyed Intern

Posted on 14. Sep, 2009 by Writer in On The Road

Started my internship today weary and googly-eyed – I must have looked like I slept in my car last night. It would have been nice to get to town a few days before but I somehow couldn’t manage. Quite simply, I didn’t want go. Leaving Salt Lake and all my lovely ones was way harder than I could have imagined – it actually made me physically ill. I waited until late Sunday afternoon and then packed up Ruby, drove 6-hours, and crashed in a wayside all scrunched up in my backseat.

I am starting to wonder if my dirtbag days have sailed. I woke about 5 times in the back of Rubes because of various leg cramps and rain drops somehow managing to squeeze through the window crack and drip precisely onto the center of my forehead. Then as I tried to get the window up I managed to set off my car alarm disturbing all the other wayside sleepers.

I felt like I was getting too comfortable with comforts. I guess that might be my best reason for leaving.  But now I am wondering what the hell is wrong with comforts. I guess there is only something wrong if your need for comfort gets in the way of being brave and following your dreams.

Full of doubt today for sure – and wondering if I simply traded one office job for another. Starting a new ‘job’ is always so awkward and weird. It is like you want to look busy but you really have nothing to do and you fill your water bottle from the bathroom sink because you don’t want to disturb the super busy looking people with yet another seemingly unimportant question. Trying to stay positive and trust that I will take away valuable things from interning and living outside of my comfort areas but sometimes it just plain sucks.

Tags: Adventures, Daily Life, Dirtbagging